why does everyone hate me bruh and den you wonder why i isolate idk man idk. ok its 90% on me im so annoying ik im so fucking annoying i know it alright but sometimes it gets to a point. also im kinda sensitive so maybe dats why im like this rn. crying over small things. i dont like being around my house recently i just want to stay in my room now. ugghhhh.
taobao is very accessible where im from because i dont require a proxy service or anything so the prices stay cheap. i could easily get alt-looking clothing for a fraction of a price compared to big japanese brands and stuff. but i dont. once i realised how easy it could be, especially after i got my debit card, i knew it would become a serious issue if i didnt shackle myself. ive only bought off there once for a special occasion. im also fairly into the idea of sustainable fashion so first and foremost, buying second-hand is a priority even if its more expensive than buying a newer similar piece off taobao. but even with second-hand buying i have to mindful of my spending habits. just buying second-hand is not enough, i shouldnt be buying unnecessarily either. i should only be buying clothes occassionally (like a few times a year at most) and only pieces i rerally like and fit my wardrobe. and if i have the time, i should upcycle what i already have. lastly, i want to buy things locally first like physical second-hand shops or online reselling platforms to reduce carbon footprint! sooo myeah #intentionalfashion #sustainable living. i should prbably make t his a full blog post lol
i need to be publicly executed bro like genuinely i want to isolate so bad get me out of this so i can stop socially embarrassing myself. maybe noone else GAF but i give a TON of FUCK BRO I CANT I CANT I LITERALLY FUCKING WANT TO DIE. i not so bad leh like its not like im hikikomori bro i can leave th house but i guess part of it is guilt cuz my parents pay school fees and it would be a waste if i just dont come then i need to retake like no no thats worse thats the worst ok. i hate myself and i want to die? thats the rentrer en soi song! 😂😂😂
THIS PAGE HAS NO JAVASCRIPT WHATSOEVER! IT'S AMAZING! ive never done so much ~arbitrary~ styling before. so many random hovers and animations.
my site actually works better on firefox browsers than chromium. or maybe its just brave having issues with scroll-behavior:smooth;
CSS SELECTORS ARE THE BEST THING EVER, ACTUALLY. i can style that one specific element without making some arbitrary id or class name????? AMAZING LITERALLY THE BEST EVER! this goes in tandem with semantic html and custom tags. modern css and html are seriously the best!
having a non-mobile friednly site is kinda normal and honestly sometimes i dread making my site responsive but BRO. i CANT NOT DO IT because in my head tomatoes will be thrown at me. and the idea of my site breaking is really uncomfortable. icant icant. also i like seeing my site on my phone so its for me oso.
fuck disroot email bro FUCK I SHOULD JUST USE PROTON BRO i cant with this rn i just want to access gitlab WHICH ALWAYS HAS 2FA WHICH I HATE LET ME LIVE BRO LET ME LIVE IM TOO TIRED FOR THIS.
i actually came out to a few people recently. its been half a week and the topic has literally never been brought up again. i think thats why it took me so long to come out, i dont feel like its necessary because i dont have many interactions where my gender is mentioned (as in just by calling me she/her or calling me a girl in certain phrases like "good girl"). but i guess it was necessary in a sense that the few times it was brought up i felt a bit uncomfortable
why am i so deluded to think i have something. im the most normal teenager ever
i have to admit quite a bit of my assets are not ethically sourced. im a bad person i know
i dont like people who like every post they see. how am i supposed to know if you really liked it or if its like that with everyone. (iveryselfconscioussorryah)
im actually quite extroverted sometimes. im just really shy and socially awkward and socially inept. agh
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you ever just hurt yourself for being bad (like slapping yoursefl or banging your head, not necessarily cutting) and after you realise that it didnt help at all and didnt solve anything and the only thing you got out of it is pain that doesnt help at all. myeah
WAN LE!!!! WO SHI WAN LE!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH
I NEED TO START ENACTING CORPORAL PUNISHMENT ON MYSELF SO I WILL DO MY WORK INSTEAD OF GOING ON VSCODIUM AND YOUTUBE. BRING OUT THE
i seriously need to revamp my home page IT LOOKS LIKE SHIT BRUH
was suppose to do my werk. dk what happened to that.
i want to make an outfits page but my room isnt very nice for taking oufit pics and im very self conscious about taking selfies in public. also i dont really want to have a permanent place with images of myself online... what to do...
i dont think i dress alt but becuase the default is t-shirt and jeans/shorts, having any sense of fashion style is basically dressing alt in this fucking humid ass country.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKF UCKF UVCXKFF I NED TO SHUT UP LIAO I CANNOT ALREADY. WHY I CANNOT SHUT MY MOUTH SIA. "oh to make friends you can just enter people's conversa" NO? NO?? AHHH AHHHH MNGAHHHH. i feel like every time i try to be social it just backfires. im 100% sure they dont gaf at all but i do and aghhh. AHHHHHH knn ts bro KNN